im super pissed.




i woke up vomiting
wtf.
my stomach feels like crap now.
argh



im too sick to even go out today.
so sad right.

and, not like you even bother lah. like, ya thanks for msging me saying sorry,
but.
whats the point?
do you know how i felt last night?
like damn. i wanted so badly to talk to you
i havent talked to you properly since long time ago.
and, yea.
there's just somethings in my heart.

i dont even feel like forgiving you.
it sucks because, it feels as though you dont even give a damn
not like you care
you care mostly all about dasao.
what do i actually mean in your life?
i bet i mean nothing to you at all.
it hurts like f.
all your sweet nothings.
are not working on me anymore.
no more.
no longer.
you are just a different person from the past.




linda?? says:
that shows how much you even care okay
(h.b.w.f.d.s.p)queen of my heart-walter monnig french horn=) says:
...
(h.b.w.f.d.s.p)queen of my heart-walter monnig french horn=) says:
hais
(h.b.w.f.d.s.p)queen of my heart-walter monnig french horn=) says:
i do

yea right.


im just effing blind to have even had feelings for you for the past 3 years,
i wonder how i had lived my life last time,
you're a different person totally.
if the reason is because of dasao,
i tell you. SHE SUCKS.
not that she's like so pretty or whatsoever,
the way she treats you, makes me feel like shit because, i know. i can treat you 1341342363453 times better. anyway, not like you'll read this anyway. why should i care?


argh.
im just plain dumb.
wtf.


im feeling so helpless right now,
i used to be able to tell you stuff and cry to you
but, not now anymore.
not like you even fucking give a damn
call me sensitive?
no, im not. totally not.



i think you are just fucking dumb, i feel like slapping you
if you cant even lend your sis a horn for free,
what other fuck can you do for me?


yea, to end with a happy note,
i miss the ac band people im always with.
Ellise, amanda, yinghao, alex, jim, wenyan, david......
yada yada.


TO ELLISE AND ALEX:
gosh,
i dont know who's gonna entertain me for the whole month of dec when both of you are not here okay =(
so sad.
one off to london, the other off to US,
=(
so sad.
argh
dont leave me here alone!!
=(
=(
THESE 2 kukus, are the ones who made my november so enjoyable.
yea, seriously very enjoyable.
all the fun laughters, over the phone, msn convos, smses, bitching abt people..
HAHHA.
gosh.
hahahahahhaa.ftw man.
FUBAR!